This month’s RPG blog carnival, running over at Kobold Enterprise, is all about new beginnings.
New beginnings are tough for this Gassy Old Gnoll. Once upon a time I was young and failure never entered my mind. Somehow as I’ve gotten older, a fear of failure has crept into my world view when I wasn’t looking.
I won’t bore you with the hard lessons learned with my last self-publishing effort for Moebius Adventures. Suffice it to say it was hard to have lofty goals and see the facade I’d built crash to the ground.
But something miraculous happened. A couple of months ago I got the itch again. It’s been 5 years since I attempted anything in the self-publishing arena, but I came up with a new idea. Something small in scale I could do as a lone writer with some art help. And I’ve been encouraged by a few friends in the industry after they saw what I had in mind. So the experiment will begin in earnest next month with some posts at the Moebius site, a free release in March if all goes well, and then the first actual for-pay product in April.
Will it work? I don’t know. Only time will tell.
Will it fail? It may. But again, only time will tell.
Do I have worries? You bet your butt I have worries. I’ve done some math. I’ve talked about pricing models with folks. I’ve done multiple rounds of over-analyzing the challenges. I’ve asked other folks who have published their own stuff or work in the RPG industry what they think. And I will continue to do that almost using the Agile Development model in short cycles to get things done and out.
But ultimately it all boils down to one thing. I just have to do it. As Yoda once said, “Do. Or do not. There is no try.” Once it’s out there, we can adjust course if need be. Until then, it’s all pure speculation and head games with myself.
I believe it can succeed. I have hope. I have the freebie almost done. I have some rough outlines for the next few in the series. So I know where I am. I know where I want to be. And I know what I need to do to get there.
That said, I’m not sure how the fear of failure crept into my head – but I’m doing my best to fight it tooth and nail. This new beginning will not be a false start. No lines in the sand.
What are you starting or starting over on? Perhaps it’s time to start a support group.